Why?

Just when I think that things are going to be okay, they aren't. 

I know why we have challenges placed in our lives, I just can't handle anymore right now.  I had hope.  I really had hope that things would be okay. 

I have so many things in place right now and the barriers just continue to wall up right in front of me.  I need a sledgehammer of some sort.  I need a break from this.  I need to feel comfortable.

It all started a while ago.  You know, I had the hope that things would be okay.  That I would be able to continue on but you know what.  Nope. 

I just ask why...